curious

i am curious what will happen if i will write everyday!
is it a kind of expression of some frustration
is it a sharing of a positive emotion,
is it looking for something i even can not imagine,
those are all questions what i am asking myself right now,
searching for another part of myself, trying to find the answers on questions,

sometimes i feel alone, even i am surrounded by people,
example: on my work, i am happy, i am in my office and have my peace, i know what to do, i know my tasks, etc.... people say i am motivating manager, etc etc....
and than when my work is finished i don't want to leave,
coz here i know what to do, once i leave the office, i am lost, i feel lost, i feel alone, i feel not safe, coz it seems like nothing is real,

this is it for now